My God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save.....

A non baked fruit custard flan made for my colleague's b'day

HEHE. **Giggle** **HAHAHAAHAHAHHAAaaaaaaaa, pardon me, i'm laughing at myself for not knowing how to start off in this post. (and so i had to post the fruit flan to cover up).

It has been a while.....and things seem so different now. In less than 10 days from today, i'm going to be a stay-at-home nobody without a job, but you know wat, the weirdest strangest thing is i'm not worried or anxious at all! Despite the circumstances i am in. Or the situation i'll be putting myself in. Despite the fact that it may look tougher. OR that it seems a little bit uncertained.

BUT God has reassured me once again. I had wanted to quit since the beginning, but 'wait' was the answer I received. Wait, it's not time yet. Wait n Be patient, My plan is at work. Wait. Wait n Wait. Sometimes i wonder if it's due to the wrong crossroads i took since the beginning. But wait, no. God's plans to prosper me are still so much so significant! Infact, i appreciate each and every encounter i've experienced, because i won't be the person i am today, if not for those disciplines God has allowed me to go thru.

I'm praying fervently at the moment. A breakthrough is happening in my life already, and i'm loving my GOD deeper n deeper everyday! I will not surrender to self-pitiness, hopelessness, discouragements n ridiculous lies, but instead i am looking forward to the new future with GREAT hopes, strong mind and a forever thankful n God trusting heart.

After God says No

After God says NO, is there still life?

I received a devotional material in my mailbox few weeks ago just after i got an invitation to a standard written test from ERM. I know God is aware of my dreams, and my circumstances although there had been many NOs for the past couple of months.

Being given a 'NO' for an answer is pretty damaging to me, despite the fact that i've been saying a lot more NOs to many people around me. I hate failures, mainly becoz i haven't been going thru any ever since i was a kid and many things have come overly too easy for my life. My education, my needs..every single thing has been taken care of. When i want an A, i got an A. When i want to achieve, i achieve without much hassle. When i want something, i get that something or sometimes even better.

Somehow, life has been difficult at the moment. Don't get confused, i am still thankful, becoz i know in comparison with many many people in this world, i'm more blessed. At least, I have a God who tells me He will never leave me in the middle of nowhere..and now that i'm in a foreign place, He has been there to ensure that i have everything i need in this country, and that i'm not bullied or mistreated by others.

However, God has given me quite a number of NOs over the last half a year. I guess it's probably the most NOs i've gotten for last 26 years! I found them very heartaching, painful experiences..yes, i don't understand and neither do i accept them in a positive manner, but i know God has His reasons. And i'm eager to find out wat they are.

He gave me a verse which struck me, and yes, despite all the NOs, i have learnt to give thanks in every circumstance, and to appreciate every moment and area in my life. I have learnt to trust Him when i'm hopeless and to surrender when the burden is too heavy.

For I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.

Philipians 4:11-13 NIV

Amen, praise God.!

Sausage - pizza like buns

I love kneading bread doughs! It's my way of releasing stress, anger, disappointment or watsoever tat need not stay inside me. Most of the time, it wld just be myself. I'm angry because i cannot take into control certain things, and lately things have been pretty tough. I do not understand, or maybe it's not up to me or pointless even if i do. So, kneading comes handy when i need to sweat out tat frustration, punching punching punching.......!!

Of course, another good side is my 'punching' doesn't go 'rewardless'. I reap tasty, nice scent of freshly baked homemade bread which becomes an important starter for my day. Yeah, so to me, making homemade bread is a very rewarding process, don't you think so?

Using the basic sweet bread dough, i simply smeared mayo and ketchup before garnishing them with shredded cheese and diced sausages.

Homemade bread, unlike outside bakery ones, is not as soft and fluffy due to none addition of reagents such as bread improver/softener or watsoever. However i'm happy enough becoz i know i'm not eating additional chemicals which may or not, be harmful to my body. Haha, although lately, i've been buying more outside bread than making my own due to busy peasy schedule.

BTW, God is amazing, we found another place to move, and guess wat, they have an oven as well! Din really thought of it as a prerequisite, but again, it's awesome tat everywhere i stay, there is always an oven!! :-)

The Most Beautiful Woman on Planet Earth

She's like an angel....She glows with delight, and people r blessed with her presence;

Her heart is full of goodness, becoz the Lord dwells in her. A woman of noble character, she worths far more than rubies and diamonds;

She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs at days to come! She speaks with wisdom and faithful instructions is on her tongue;

Her children arise and call her blessed, her husband also and they praise her.


"Many women do noble things, but she surpasses them all. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

These evidences make her the most beautiful woman on planet Earth, and on this special occasion, i wan to wish her (my MOMMY) a blessed Mother's Day!!


adapted from Proverbs 31: 10-31

An attempt to live healthy

This is what i have been feeding myself and hub, especially when he has to work overtime and dinner comes late. Easy, nutritionuos and packed with lotsa vitamins and antioxidants......

Topped with yogurt (not available in picture).....it tastes superb, really!

An early retirement ?

Chocolate Cupcakes

Mango Chilled Cheesecake

Custard Chocolate tartlets

I haven't been baking ever since coming back here, and my hands r getting itchier and itchier as I looked at all these photos. Reading recipes used to be my interest, but ever since i've been refraining myself from baking, i turned back to biographies and humanities, which have been long my favourite even before i was married. After i got married, Hub claimed i need to read more 'encouraging books' instead of things like 'Betrayed', or 'Raped', he gave me a hard question which stops me thinking for a while, "will reading these books make u appreciate ur life more"? In the end i decided it was 'yes', somehow, i love reading about people's lives, not just the prominent ones, but people who have been abused, and left out in the society, whose stories need to be heard. It saddens me a little, becoz many rare and bizarre things tat u wouldn't (and couldn's) imagine are actually taking place in our midst!! So count your blessings, becoz you are soo soo much more blessed than many many lives in this world. (i'm reminding myself HAHA)

I just finished another book abt FLDS, called "Stolen Innocelence", which is another recap of a young lady's life in this polygamous society and how she went abt fighting and testifying against its so-called 'prophet'. If you have read 'Escape', this is another good book which i highly recommend. :-)

P/S: I decided i'm not retiring from baking, just a temporary break :-). I can't give up on sth which i like so much, even more than my career!

And ahh, those goodies in the above were baked for Kimmie's 16th birthday party. :-D 

Updates?

Sigh, life has been pretty hectic lately, hopes came crushing down and nothing looked eventually right. As much as i dislike the place where i am right now, and not to mention the current lifestyle and career, I had promised to put myself alive in God, trusting that He is in control. I have never come across a job which i dislike soo much, i'm beginning to wonder what's the purpose of this, and if this contributes as part of the prospect towards my ultimate goal.

When i wasn't working, i wanted to work soo badly. And now tat i AM in a job, I want to go back to the original. It's just a simple small request, really it is. I'm not demanding for a super high paid important role in a BIG multinational company, but that job, the one that i have set in my heart since i first started, in tat part of area tat i know i wan to hook on to until my retirement age. Sigh, this is the real life and i have to face it no matter what. A girl has to grow and do what she has to!

Enough abt the rambling and growls, here is sth to cheer on for: the ultimate chocolate banana cake a.k.a Kimmie's 16th birthday cake, with strawberries and rochers.....i've seen lotsa decos like this, and ya, they do come very handy, especially for novice bakers like me! I only spent less than half a day on this cake (incl. baking n frosting n deco) coz i had other pastries to look after, but thank God, it was a success (or at least i think so)!

Happy blessed belated B'day my dearest sister! Jie Jie loves you always!

BTW, someone has been working till 11pm almost every nite making tat 12 hours straight from 9am, is this considered also as a normal part of living? I wonder...
Ya, i know, it's financial year end......