Eat PRAY n Love

I so envy this lady. if i have the chance, i wld consider doing the same. but where wld i go? shun myself from the exotic world? eat all my heart n become extremely fat (who cares?), pray in deep meditation to get myself closer to the heavens? and to my Papa? find myself a never failing love? tat wld be lovely, ain't it?

yes, to italy to explore the finest sexiest italiano bimbo.  but hey i love fish. shd i head back to the tropics?

to india? hmm, let's change the direction to Jerusalem. Yeah that wld be awesome. I'm gonna start my faith by praying for the day my country allows legal entry.

Bali..! yeah so much for romance. y not Paris? Hmm, it wld be idyllic to kiss in front of Eiffel. Besides, french guys are good looking  not bad, aren't they? LOL.

Time to wake up! :-P


** this dream wouldn't work on me. i can't bear to leave my hubby telly. n fat? Sorry!

Learning the hard reality

How i wish i'm forever a kid  baby toddler. i can cry whevener i wan to and people will be queuing to soothe me. i get attention n the world seems a better place. i don't have to face anxiety, n go thru the trauma of apprehensions of tmr and the days ahead. I wld only know when i am hungry i will be fed, when i'm wet i will be changed, when i'm sleepy i will be cuddled with love and when i'm sick, i will be attended with great comfort and care. Sigh * why do we have to grow up?? **



I got a message from a fren today saying she envied my life. What's there to envy, i asked? I have not found a suitable job, my hub is million miles away, and i'm alone in this new surrounding trying very hard to adapt. N with a young teenager who's getting on my nerve. As often as i try to remind myself to be thankful in every circumstance, i find it tremendously difficult. And i understand. There comes a time when we wld look at our own lives and compare it with our neighbours, thinking why this person can have such a blessed life, and me stucked in this sickening episode? I can't give you an answer, but i can truthfully agree with you. We often overlook our blessings, becoz we were never contented. Yes, contentment. Are you satisfied with what you have? Are you living in contentment?

Being content is perhaps the greatest challenge i face in every episode of my life. To be honest, i dreaded my own life. Zillions of time. I couldn't comprehend certain things that occured nor could i accept, but i know i had to let go becoz i wld still wake up to a new morning everyday. Like it or not, i am still living. N it's awfully hard. But i'm thankful becoz i have a Father who cares. I am hanging to this hope. The hope that tells me, everyday is a new begining to sth. 

So pls, do not envy. Everyone is different. But God loves us all the same. :-D

My prayer today

Yet you, LORD, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. -Isaiah 64:8

Dear God,

hi there Papa. Thank you for such a beautiful day, temperature's currently sitting at 21 degrees which i personally think is just perfect; neither warm nor cold. Guess what, i finally paid a visit to Vicroad, and found out that i am required to get a translation for my m'sian driving license in order to proceed with the conversion. I walked out from the building feeling extremely guilty, 1st for being so negligent (i should have done this long long ago)  and 2ndly, for breaking the law everyday without realising. Gosh, as if i hadn't learnt my lessons enough, here am i again, making my life difficult due to the same stupid ignorance. I am so sorry, honestly i am, feeling terribly disturbed deep inside, yet at the same time, thankful because i found out before it was 'too late'.

Again, thank you for everyday. If it wasn't for You, i guess i wld never hv the strength to endure every single day. I have been having a nausea feeling lately, and it's causing me paranoid thoughts. I don't know what is coming up, but i do trust You are in control. Thank you Papa for assuring me always.

I cannot describe how great You are. You shut up the clouds when i walked out of the shelter, You made the car alive after my simple call, You gave me a parking space after i asked for it, You have made all things possible for me, yes, i cannot thank You enough. You are my Saviour always and forever. I wan nothing but to carry out the purpose You have created me for. Yes, the greatest blessing to me wld be living as Your creation and acknowledging You, my creator in every step of my life.

I ask that You bless the victims affected by the floods in Queensland. Papa, please change the direction of the storms that are coming. And stop all pouring in that area. To the victims traumatized by this disaster, i ask for Your spirit of calmness, peace, tranquility, and comfort upon their souls. For those who had lost their homes, i pray that You grant them wisdom and finances to rebuild their houses. For those who had lost their loved ones, i pray that You comfort them in the midst. And please uphold the government, give them accurate discernment n understanding to foresee the steps ahead and execute all mitigation measures to assist the victims and recover all losses. Let all executions and rebuilding plans come under Your provision. Papa, i surrender everyone affected in Your gracious hands. Through such events, i have come to realise that i'm literally very blessed. I will not ever complain again, of the weather here in this city, but thanking You for the rain that came, the chill, the warmth, and bright shinning sun. And thank you for the shelter You have provided that shields me from all these.

Papa, i felt so much better after talking and writing to You. Let Your will be done in our lives as me n hubby partnered together to build our home in this city. I know there would be many challenges ahead, but with You in all our plans, i shall worry no more but willingly submit and trust in You.

Last but not least, please take care of our loved ones, extended families and friends. Bless them today in their workplaces, homes and schools.

In the most wonderful name of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ,
AMEN.

God of new beginnings

Our God is a God of New Beginnings. What a wonderful remark i just heard on the radio. It was a life saver, like as if my soul had been lifted from among the dead.

First rambling of the year

It's official. I'm bored. Today is the last public holiday in Melbourne, and believe it or not, i couldn't wait for the holidays to be over to start kicking my life. And thank God, exactly a month to my in laws' arrival, and 15 days before i see my dear hubby again! My sister is upset abt missing from the first day of skool, well i guess it's sure chaotic for the most important person a.k.a top head prefect to be not there to deliver her auspicious speech and monitor her team of prefects, but again, like what i've often been reminded and will say again, be thankful n happy over decisions that you have chosen! I told her to rest well over the next remaining days becoz it sure gonna be damn hectic with studies goin round 7 days a week n tuitions every single day, once she lands on the 12th. Yeah, what sort of life can u expect from a VVIP in skool with supreme responsibilities and expecting an exam called the S.P.M end of the year which will deliberately determine her future?

Nevertheless, i have enough troubles for myself; there's a comprehensive list that i need to attend to, BIG big chores. 

Ahh well enuf of the ramblings, i had intended to write about coffee in this city, and yeah, you heard me no wrong, coffee! You'll smell it once u exit that sliding 'magic' door at Tullamarine airport, n everywhere in the CBD, no doubt!  I was surprised as well, before i came, i was informed that Melbourne is well known for its coffee, sth which got off my head for a while becoz i never expect coffee 'coffee' to be popular in this part of the world, when i had come from a place which also brags abt its coffee! I seem to live in a world famous for coffee, lol, i guess i will never have the chance to kick off this personal 'drug' of mine, wherever i am huh?

And guess wat, i just signed up for IKEA family that gives me a golden ticket to free coffee everytime i visit the swedish store. Yeah, n the coolest part is IKEA here serves different kinds of coffee unlike the others, so well, that's the number one reason i did NOT put 'anti-coffee' as one of my resolutions this year. Let it come naturally, lol.

see the black porcelain mug on right top corner? tat's my free coffee. bottomless.

Everyday.

Everyday. Of my life. I wan to find you there and hold you tight.

Everyday. From right now. Going to use my voice to scream out loud. Take my hand, together we will celebrate.

Everyday. Wat does it really mean?

No matter where we go. It starts from where we are.
Bcoz of you, i've got the strength to start.

Yeah.

No man can live on his own. We are created to live in relationships.

No matter how independent i yearn to be

No matter how strong i had thought

No matter how hard i tried

It has come to my realisation that

By all means, n whatever it has taken a toll of

I cannot live alone. No never.  I need you.

Everyday.

1.1.11

Quadruple 1s! Indeed a special day, i am so glad that we share this day together, n to my dearest hub, family and friends out there, a very very blessed new year 2011! I wish and speak great blessings to your lives and good health always. :-D

I was just looking thru my photo albums, n yeah, my laptop definitely needs a thorough clean-up. Many junks/ old files that are still consuming the memory space, and they sure need to go so that new files can come in. Same goes with our lives,isn't it?  Let go of the past to allow a bright future to kick in. 2010 has been awesome, it has taught me a chapter of life and brought many indescribable joy n painful incidents, and as dubious as it sounds, i'm married for two years ald! I'm looking forward to this year and hopefully (hehe) i can share sum good news by end of the year 2011. (i know i'm a freak, the year just started and i'm ald anticipating the end,lol)

Well, allow me to share these pictures to commemorate my year 2010 ; afterall, pictures speak a thousand words. :-D

a great (n only) time of bonding. my sisters flew to SG in June n we had a wholesome dashing time together.

i guess it's the only time of the yr he could pool pool

 

my special colleagues. i guess tat was the last b'day cake i managed to make for 2010. ** i shall never forget you both.

A nice friend  of mine n his family. N always a good one :-)

oh yeah, my mom graduated. say hello to pastor mrs Ho. God is great!

we hardly had any family photo, so here's one tat looks tigerrific.

Again, say hi to my ex-collegues.

Ms Chong came. N i turned her into a shopacholic.

But importantly, i managed to introduce her my most fave German pork knuckle. n made her drool all the way back to KK.

This is perhaps the last pic we took in M'sia in 2010? i like it. say hi to my long lost brother. do u see the resemblance?

N i finally arrived in this city which i shall call 'home'.

 I haven't been really baking in 2010. But i voted the below as my two greatest achievements:

Custard tartlets

Kim's 16th b;day choconana cake.

Yup so, 2010 was fairly simple in a way, becoz there was some sort of transition but i'm thankful for every bit of it. Every collection will remain in my heart always, even as 2011 kicks in, n there wld be many new beginnings; a new place, new job, new colleagues, new church, new etc. etc.

Now i've got a list of resolutions to run thru, wat's ur resolution for this year? A or B, do have a pleasant good year! God bless.