When you thought it is turning 'bad'..

This blog title sounds interesting to me because it reflects my current situation. I know the above picture somehow does not correlate to the title, but i'll explain further on so that you can see how baking is related to this.

Ya, it seems like everything is turning upside down. To be perfect honest, i'm starting to hate my job, and for a starter to hate his/her job, it must be really bad. Seems like there are so many disadvantages over the advantages, e.g. the four hours travelling time etc etc. Nevertheless, the job is pretty challenging and exciting, very new, and something that i must go through in order to be a complete environmental engineer. Which means, from feasibility studies to design to installation to commissioning to operation and handover of a certain plant, every single step, i'll be well capable of.

Somehow i believe (due to previous experiences), whenever i thought something just wasn't right anymore, it always turned out to be something fruitful in the end. Yes it's true, just like these chocolate balls, if it wasn't for that failed brownie, they wouldn't have come up on my agenda and in the end became a favourite among the kids and even adults. Not to mention, they helped me clear off certain ingredients in the cupboard. :-P

Yup, due to my current job, I finally got the dream/purpose that God has put in me. The whole picture of the dream. I never realised what my goals are in life, because i'm this kind of person who just act and live according to current situation or by what comes. For example, people asked why i did Chemical Engineering. I said because my dad wants me to be an engineer (which is true) and because during that time, i only get to choose either mechanical, e&e or chemical, so i did chemical because it seems like the best choice to me. Deep inside me i never intended to do chemical engineering, and if it didn't come to me at that point, i don't think i'll ever think of it forever. Only after doing it that i began to like the subject and the works involved. (But i regretted for not choosing Civil).

Same goes with environmental. People asked again why i go into the Environmental line when Chemical is so broad and you can earn more in Oil and Gas/ Chemical industry. I said it was due to my second employment, which also comes by the grace of God (i can tell you a long story about this), because i never, again intended to go into the environmental line at the first place. I took it merely because 1) the office is near my house (i decided it's best not to go KL then), 2) consultancy line sounds very good, and 3) i love travelling. As i engaged further into this line, i began to love my work (very much) and yes, this is what i wanted to do!

And then now i'm here. Very deep rooted in the environment field. 'Seeing things happen', if that's the best phrase to describe. I didn't realise it until last week, when i was in the car on the way to visit an under construction STP with my boss, that ya, this was what God has put in me in my youth days during mission trips. I used to dream of going into kampongs or rural areas where there are no utilities/ proper STP etc, to build and provide them with these basic amenities. This dream became so real as i was sitting in the car (and it was raining heavily), like a scene just flashed through inside my head. Then i realised, i'm here to learn all the designs, and the construction, so that i can achieve this dream one day. Only by going thru all technical details can i make things happen.

I think God is really amazing, because this dream used to be a fantasy,but by His grace, He has been and is leading me along the right path to achieve the intended dream that He has put in me.